She asked for peace
and he wanted war.
He found salvation
and she discovered gold.
Looking for an exit,
they bumped into
a million dead ends.
And in a stormy night,
they died in a sea
of callous friends.
Time was passing like a hand waving from a train I wanted to be on.
I hope you never have to think about anything as much as I think about you.
Most days I feel like I’m grasping at things that aren’t entirely tangible. There have been weeks where I have lived entirely inside my head. Days when someone put their hand on my shoulder and I only felt the weight of it. Nights when it seemed like I was sitting in the passenger seat of my car while someone else was driving, and I would end up in a parking lot somewhere without knowing how I ever got to that place.
Of course I want to be happy, successful, emotionally and financially stable. Who doesn’t? But I can’t help the feeling that those aren’t the right goals. I can’t help feeling that the American Dream is a nightmare, and I want to wake up from it.
What I really want is to connect, and stay connected. What I want is not to be standing at an airport terminal every 3 months with baggage that can’t be checked. I want to open the refrigerator at work without having to reach past the beer for a water bottle. What I want is to wake up next to the one that I love instead of a computer screen. What I want is to to be known, not just understood. What I want is to get through a week without wanting to turn myself inside out. I want to heal from my wounds. I want to forgive.
But what I want most of all is to be better. I don’t want to be better the way a sick person wants to be well, I want to be better the way rain wants to fall.Wake Me (via amccalltoarms)
…abuse has a severe, long-term psychological and neurological effect. This is why you have difficulty concentrating, why you have trouble sleeping, why you can’t seem to stay focused, why you cry at the drop of the hat, why you’re not satisfied with yourself, why you think everything is your fault, why you think you’re toxic, why you’re full of regret and you don’t know why.queendopamine (via eternalxsunshiine)
She saw the beauty in him that no one ever noticed before and she wished with all her heart that someone would see his beauty the way she does. She wanted someone to see it as much as she did so he could love that someone, knowing she could never have him, or that he could never love her the way she loves him.Jenna K (via crisping)
You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy. So let them go, let go of them. I tie no weights to my ankles.C. JoyBell C. (via observando)